Epiphany Is Cupid's Play

Halo to all.

Perhaps I wanted to upload this blog on this month. Not because of the fact that Cupid was shooting arrows, but rather it could be because I wanted to say some stuff out of my own fantasies and daydreams. Just think of it like I’m falling from Cloud 9. Anyway, allow me to show you a few scenarios of them.

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SEGMENT 1: TWAS' THE NIGHT

It was the 12th of December. My family and I had just confirmed a Christmas celebration taking place at our home. Of course there were lots to prepare: Food, decorations, but most importantly invitations. I immediately sent them to my friends. Only 3 were able to make it. Nonetheless, it was better than nothing.

Then, I came to a thought of someone else who I really wanted to invite. Her. Thanks to my INFJ personality (Refer to my October 2017 blog if you want to know more about an INFJ.), I was hesitant to send it. Took me 3 days before I bravely did it. Of course I sent it while I was still busy doing work when she had already left.

2 hours before midnight, just as I was about to finish my work, a notification sound resonated off my phone. And the thought of it possibly her reply made my heart race. I grabbed my phone, opened it, and I was right. It was her. The good news was that she had replied to my invitation. The bad news? She was unable to make it.

It may have turned out that way, but I myself tend to picture “What Ifs” just to keep that positive hope going. Came Christmas, and of course with a few of my friends, we talked and played to catch up. It was indeed fun. By the time they had left the party, I started to picture a “What If” moment and here was what I was fantasising.

— What if she declined just to fool me? —

“As my friends had left the party, I decided to return back to my room to take a rest. Suddenly, a few minutes later, my phone sounded out. I picked it up. It was a message from her, saying she was waiting at the gate. My reaction? Immediately storm out the house and rush towards the gate.

There she was with that smile. I couldn’t help but go towards her and hug her. Never mind whoever could see us. Never mind if she fooled me into thinking she couldn’t make it. Her presence just made this Christmas truly a gift.”

SEGMENT 2: GREETINGS OUTTA' NOWHERE

Came the 10th of January; A day before my birthday. Typically nowadays, a lot of people know when would your birthday be, all thanks to social media. A notification shows up in their phone and boom! I’d get a birthday greeting posted on my Facebook wall.

I’m fine with the spammage of greetings flooding my wall, but ultimately the ones who matter to you are the ones you would appreciate, especially if they don’t come from Facebook. To emphasize, Number 1: My family. Number 2: Close friends. And Number 3: Someone you like. Let me tell you more about Number 3.

My birthday had come, and I woke up feeling refreshed. First thing I did was to look at my phone. What I would expect are the multiple notifications from Facebook. What I didn’t expect: A birthday greeting from her, and it’s not even from Facebook. I was surprised though, as I didn’t mention my birthday to her, but at the same time, I was heartwarmingly happy.

Obviously I had another one of them “What If” moments pictured and this was what I had dreamt of.

— What if she wanted to say more? —

“After entering into a lovestruck phase upon seeing that message, she messaged me with an emoticon of a blushing but smiling face. This surprised me, as I began to wonder if she was really interested in me.

Hence, I replied with a question mark. And then, within a minute, came a 5-second video response from her: Just simply her looking at me with that genuine smile. I myself felt warm and fuzzy inside with her looking towards the camera.”

SEGMENT 3: IDEA FROM IDEA

February had arrived, and one of our colleagues would be resigning in a week. So, an idea was made in a form of a card to wish him farewell, hence she placed a small note into my locker for me to pen down what I wanted to say to our colleague. Although I was already triggered before to slot something nice into her locker before this happened, what she did already tempted me more to do this.

When I finished penning down my farewell note, I slotted it into her locker. But you know, I did it when no one is around, because I had this blushy feeling on someone seeing me do this like as if I was doing some kind of love letter (Shoot, I’m feeling warm the moment I’m writing this out.).

Anyway, a few days later, Valentine’s Day had arrived. I went to pack my stuff by the time work had ended. Then, I briefly looked at her locker and thought of a “What If” moment.

— What if I really slotted something cute? —

“As I had finished packing, and saw that no one was around, I immediately tore out a piece of paper and simply drew out a face with tongue sticking out to one side. After which, I slotted it into her locker. Somehow, I felt like I just pulled a risk that could end up getting reciprocated or rejected.

I was then on off-duty for the next 2 days, so I was left to wonder about her response. The thought of just fantasising and dreaming about her was not enough.

I returned back to work, and the moment I opened up my locker, I saw something that I expect and didn’t expect at the same time. It was the same piece of paper that I drew. This time, something else was drawn behind it: A red-inked heart emoticon.

Holy shoot. She knew. Not wanting to waste the time of timidly waiting, I messaged her to meet me at the workplace’s garden for lunch and she agreed.

Lunch came. And I was sitting at a table waiting anxiously for her to show up. Fortunately no one was within my vicinity, cause I’m about to do something that could send me and her into a warm mess. There she was, walking towards me with that sweet smile. Upon sitting down, I placed my hand over hers, and she held it like as if she really wanted to. With that, I mutted out what would be a love confession.

Wanna know what happened next? Nah. Let’s just say that I finally got what I needed.”

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Let’s hope that things would get better from here on out. I mean to be honest, never did I have a chance of going this far during the previous years. I went to lunch with her sometimes during work. Not only that, she’d tap me on my shoulder whenever I didn’t see her yet (Physical contact. Is that a sign?). But most prominently, that smile. I know she does this to her colleagues as well, but I swear the ones she has given me has vibes of “I’m happy you’re here”.

Well, I gotta get back to playing my Xbox. Got new games that I’m anticipating for its release next month. Till then, see you starside.

“Don’t look down on the floor as it won’t let you see anything new. Instead, look up to the sky, as it always changes day in day out. That is what I call believing in tomorrows.”